"I am at times hard to handle. But if you can't handle me at my worst, then you sure as hell don't deserve me at my best." - Marilyn Monroe
So, I was inspired by this blogger to write this entry.
The blogger originally intended it for the "dating" aspect, but as for me, I'm just going to cite my Pros and Cons list just so you'd know more about me. It is not my intention to lure men with this post, but with this post, a man shall know who I am and the ways in how I love him.
So far, I've had only one ex which was a total EPIC FAIL, and countless unrequited loves. Yep, yep. I am THAT girl who keeps on hoping, who keeps on falling for someone yet never loved back. I am the girl who keeps hoping in hopeless situations, who turns to God for romance advice, who keeps on getting hurt and still gets up.
And I also have a secret: I have never been asked out. Shocked? Don't be. ______
The Amazing List:
1. I'm Spontaneity with a Capital S: Yep. I love surprises and I love weird ways in which a guy tells me he is attracted to me. IF I will be on a date with a guy, I like doing fun and weird things that other people would be afraid to do. I'm not too fond of being cheesy, but sometimes I think it is worth it.
2. I don't care what you wear: I'd like a guy to look handsome and neat, but I'm not one to nag at men what to wear, or how to do their hair or whatever. Comfort should be a first.
3. Honesty: If you seriously are attracted to me, then say it right then and there! Don't let the moment pass you by.
4. Great taste in music: I will always fall for the guy with great taste in music. I grew up listening to really good musicians, so I am naturally drawn to men who have a nice collection of fine music.
5. I will be a friend first before getting into anything with you: I'm not really the type to fall in love at first sight. It's possible for some people, but not for me. There has to be like a long-term friendship connection with a man before I can finally say that this guy is good for me.
6. Intelligence, Wit, Logical & Practical are Turn-Ons: I am a geek by nature, so if you are one, then I'm pretty sure we'd get along really well. I am not that good with logic, I think that's the reason why I am attracted to men who are logical because it complements my lack of it.
7. As long as you believe that God should be the center of your life and heart, then you just shot an arrow into my path.
8. Loves kids, loves his family, treats his friends well: I cannot resist you.
9. Treat me like a real woman and I will be devoted to you.
10. Your flaws are beautiful, your mistakes will be lessons to learn from and your quirks are cute.
11. If you're a virgin: ....that's a bonus point for you!
12. Conversation is the spice of relationship & Communication is key.
13. I'm a Giver & I am patient: When I'm into you, I show my love by giving you sweet tokens that show you I treasure you and by being patient with you.
14. A good heart is important.
15. I frequently burst out into dance moves when I'm in some bar with dance music, so if I'm with you, we shall dance!
16. I'm a nurse & I'm a Filipina: We are known to be very good in caring for our partners, our friends, our families and other people.
The Not So Amazing List:
1. I easily cry. Especially in very sad movies and when someone else cries: I know some men don't like emotional women, but so what? At least I am in touch with my emotions. And it is because I am very humanitarian.
2. I can't sing. I lipsing, but I can't sing. Deal with it. Heh.
3. I'm not the sporty gal, but I'm willing to compromise. If you want some physical activity, I like running, hiking and jogging. I don't play baseball or football, but I know the rules of basketball. If you want to do bowling or shoot pool, you better teach me first.
4. I feel alone in a crowd at parties sometimes.
5. I don't feel all that comfortable going to parties with a lot of screaming girls and guys drunk in one corner.
6. I have a dark side. No, it doesn't mean I'm one of those suicidal people, but loneliness has been in my history, so it naturally hangs about me like a cloud. And I like violent and bloody movies and psychological movies.
7. I have had my clumsy moments. I actually once ran into a "No Entry" sign..
8. I get into heated debates every now and then...[I'm not too sure if this is a good or a bad sign]
9. I have stage fright. Never liked talking in front of a crowd, especially in formal events.
"To Write Love On Her Arms" is a non-profit movement dedicated to presenting hope and finding help for those struggling with depression, addiction, self-injury and suicide. TWLOHA exists to encourage, inform, inspire, and also to invest directly into treatment and recovery.
I know its a little late, but in support of this movement, I took some pictures of myself in a creative way. Also, this blogger inspired me to write my own blog of this movement. [Pictures were taken on the said date, 11/13/09, but uploaded just now]
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On this same day, my organization, Rotaract Club, held our fundraising entitled, "Wine Night Stand Season III: Cocktail Party For A Cause - where we had red and white wine. [I don't drink either, so I just helped myself to some of the food served...]
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Today is Sunday. Mom, my little sis and I went to the church. It was not so packed, because today is also the boxing fight of Manny Pacquiao (Philippines) and Miguel Cotto (Puerto Rico). I haven't watched it yet, but I'll catch up with the replay. Pacquiao won!!! Woot woot!
Anyway....the mass was good, I was especially inspired by what the priest said.
"Religion is for people who are afraid to go to hell. Spirituality is for people who have been to hell."
I agree with this. There really is a difference. Praying and living one's own life for God isn't just about reciting prayers or asking favors or memorizing theologies and Bible passages. It is how you incorporate God's word into your life, making it as if God isn't just high up in the heavens, but living and burning with fire in our own hearts and souls.
I have been to hell and back, and that much I can say that life isn't easy. It's sometimes like a crazy boxing fight and maybe you win or you lose, but in the end, you still have hope in you. That everything might get worse than it already is, but to just keep on having hope and faith is already leading you to win.
One should live their lives to the fullest NOW, and not when the end is at hand. Because who knows? Tomorrow might be the end, or next year or the year after that. It is best to be prepared. ______
And oh, Indie Music! [Search them...great music, I tell you] -Noah and The Whale -The Shins -Iron and Wine -Pavement -They Might Be Giants
There are many reasons why I love kids. They're smart, they're cool, they're fun and most of all, they have this innocence about them that always render adults speechless, and make us think that they are wiser than even the most intellectual or educated people.
My mom related the following story of what "Virginity" means to my 9-year old sister.
One night, they were watching an old episode of Oprah interviewing Michael Jackson.
Oprah [to Michael]: "Are you a virgin?" (in other words: "Michael, have you had sex?")
Before Michael could answer, there was a commercial break. And then....
Nina, my sister [to my mom]: "Why? Doesn't Michael have a sin?" Mom: "What do you mean by sin?" Nina: Like you know, sin. The things that we do that are bad, that Jesus doesn't like." (She equates Virginity with Purity, not because she thinks virginity is related to anything sexual) Mom [bewildered]: "Of course Michael has sins." Nina: "Then why does Oprah still ask if Michael is a virgin?" Mom: [Stumped, mouth open, speechless...]
This was really sweet, and I couldn't stop laughing. Ah, kids! So damn smart and innocent at the same time. When I was my little sister's age, I already had at least an idea of what sex is. I started my period when I was nine, it was frightening.
So much innocence is lost in today's generation. How many teens these days are still virgins? Like, literally. How many young adults aged 20-25 are still virgins? If you aren't a virgin anymore, then you can still be pure. By giving love, by practicing kindness and by teaching others to do the same. I'd like to think that there are still people out there who are still virgins. Perhaps not in mind or body (because we do acquire a lot of knowledge, even impure ones), but in soul and in heart. ___
So, today I was in Facebook for a long time chatting with Brett. We talked about people, love, celibacy, high school and super heroes. And of course, God.
I saw on YouTube, a good friend who isn't speaking to me anymore. He has actually blocked me for reasons he has never explained. I'd like to still keep tabs on people I love and who've been my friends in this lifetime even if they're so far away now.
Also, there are only 55 pages left to go in my book, Catch-22. I'm wondering what I will read next: The Worthing Saga by Orson Scott Card or Selected Tales by Edgar Allan Poe. Totally undecided as of the moment.
Life's not perfect, but I'm good. I'm in love and I love my friends and people all over the world.
Quote of the day: "Have no fear of perfection - you'll never reach it." - Salvador Dali
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